Understanding

Why can't you understand,
That I care for you,
Ever since i first held your hand,
Hoping you'd stay here forever,
I thought of you first,
Never did i put myself before you, never,
I hope you understand,
that i want whats best for you,
Hoping you'll see, from my point of view,
I love you from the depths of my heart,
And I don't know where to start,
But I want you to stay home,
The world you shouldn't roam,
When you can stay here in my arms,
And I shall keep you safe from harm,
Just as i always have tried to,
But the only thing in the way,
Was my lack of understanding for...
You...

Cross My Heart

Cross my heart

Hope not to die

You walk my way

You catch my eye

You say you love me

Is it a lie?

You say you need me

I hope it’s true

I want you bad

And need you, too…

I want to be

I want to be found

I want to be saved

I want to be searched for

To feel and be needed

I want you to see

To see the real me

Not the me that has lied

The real me

Not the me in the mask

But behind them all

Behind the masks, behind the lies

The true me

Not the me behind your wants

Behind your needs

Not the me who lies to please

The real, the true me

The beautiful, the loveable me

The me who wants to just be me

Simply, truly, beautifully

Me…

Who to Trust

The feeling in my heart

Matches the look on my face.

I’m trying to control my anger,

Trying to subside my tears.

I feel like yelling, screaming, crying!

My pain built up over these years.

I’m so very confused!

What in the world is going on?

The world needs to make up its mind!

They’re all on and off! Hot and cold!

They look like friends,

They look like family,

But in the end, they turn out to be,

Nothing more than the enemy!

I feel there’s only one person,

In this whole world,

That I can really, truly trust,

But then again…

                                      Can I even really trust…

                                                                                      Me?

It's Not The Same

It’s not the same

It never shall be

You’ve cursed my name

Turned away from me

My face you’ve forgotten

My love now is dust

Your words I believed in

Now moving on is a must

But I can’t move on

No, I can’t let go

My tears, they are falling

They’re falling like snow

I want you to know

That I love you, still

You’re still my best friend

The end of time until

I know that it’s cruel

This life is so rough

People are mean

But our friendship is tough

It’s hard as a rock

It’s tough as a nail

And no matter what

It’ll always prevail…

Beautiful Soul

A beautiful soul, drifting silently away

Her voice oppressed, forcefully by fear

Those left behind, envying those now gone

Only some left, still have Hope

Only some left, still have Faith

But their voices, drowned out

Made mute by the silent hand of her enemy

Not allowing Hope, not allowing Faith

In the end, who would live?

In the end, who would die?

Who would help her?

This beautiful soul, drifting silently away

Silently away, into the night